I have lost everything that matters to me in my entire life except my children. I have almost no ties to people b/c they just hurt me. SO I try not to have any. Now I have made some. All I do is get hurt & wait for the person I love to leave.

After a horrid divorce, I found a great man. However, I feel like I keep doing things wrong, and I am petrified he is going to leave me. He does throw it out there at times, like he would do, even tho we have been together what seems like a long time. And I feel so insecure. I feel like if he gave me a ring or something to SHOW me what he means by commitment, that he really does mean it, I wouldn't feel so LOST 1/2 the time. But we just had an anniversary, and I got no ring. I feel so much angst that i can't hardly take it, but I can never leave this guy, no matter what he does.

I desperately want companionship. Even more, though, I want love. I want to feel a man's lips against mine and his breath in my ear. I want your large body on mine. And I want to engage in intellectual conversations to no end.

I have so many problems that i do not know what to begin with.I have always felt the need of being someone next to me,a guy,a man.I needed to feel and have that deep,unconditional love.But when it comes about sex,i like to be tied, slapped, dominated almost "violent".I like oral,I like anal,I like anything that involves a man and a woman.But I am confused,haw could someone love me unconditional and be able to do me all these things,to make satisfied.I do not want this kind of sex every time,just sometimes...I had and I am still having a rough life,but fortunately I a am strong,at 14 I was raped,at 15 I had an abortion.But I still can love and be a good person.But I am so sick of all stupid,mean and shallow people.Would this ever change?

I said I never want to get married. But now I think I do want to. That makes me feel embarrassed because I have been really for sure for so long about not wanting to, and now no one thinks I ever will or that I have any desire to. I am really afraid that my man will never ever ask me to marry him because of what I have said about marriage. But now I want him to ask me. But I don 't know how to say that out loud now.

Losing something you love is the worst feeling of all. Getting it back feels like something close to a miracle.